the esoterics of ladytao

aimlessly i wonder in this vast universe, with either too much to say and never getting in a word edgewise. always being the listener and helping others with their life changing adventures. always being heard but not helped in returned. it's a selfless job but i guess if this is my destiny then i'm the persona to do it.

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legal assistant,dispatcher,bartender,single parent,teacher,crafter,artist,jack of all trades, master of none,having to do just about anything to survive, with the exception of selling myself for my morality and dignity. i am a wholesome person, truthful, and lustful for life and love more so than most i think because it keeps getting me in trouble, but when i die i can truly say i loved, i lusted, and most of all i lived life, don't get me wrong, i've done it with class. i have feasted as the tiger i am, i've charmed many with a simple smile without ever having to take my clothes off, but then life isn't learned until you've made a few mistakes, and there are very few i regret.

Monday, October 09, 2006

creating One's SELF

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we don't realize how much we re-create ourselves on a daily basis.
that is why we need a good nites sleep so we can re-invent ourselves.
that is why sometimes we feel as if we don't know who we are when we awaken.

we are given a chance to wake up and start over every morning,
so we goofed up,
so we fell on our face in front of a dozen people,
only we can fix what we wronged or we can be stubborn and keep re-living the event of the past.
so i say to you GOOD MORNING,
today i shall put my best foot forward and move into the next phase of my life no matter what that may be.

Wednesday, October 04, 2006

knowing the truth

the esoterics of ladytao
knowing the truth and knowing what's going to be
not always a good thing,
not always a bad thing,

it's no wonder why so many of us are in denial.

knowing, doing, accepting
too much work for most people.

it's just easier to have someone else tell us what we already know.
don't you think???????

Monday, October 02, 2006

at arms length

just when you know that everything is going to be alright
that it's finally your turn,
that cosmic bully comes by and shoves you out of the way and makes you lose your place in line.
and for the life of you, you just can't remember where you were.
and it feels like you've been shoved to the back of the line
and once again you wait and wait patiently,
and just as it's your turn because this time it wasn't so hard to get to where you are,
and you know in your heart that everything is going to be alright,
the cosmic order gets changed up again,
beginning to feel as if your climbing the stairs in Harry Potter,
yea! you know your feeling like the higher you climb, the harder it gets to jump to the ground,
because now you can't see it any longer, so you just keep climbing.
almost there, and something cosmic comes flying at you and you don't know how you ended up where you began.

by now it's not about all the climbing,
or being shoved out of line,
or missing your turn again,
but the question that burns in your gut is; "if i ask why, will i have more delays in my life?"
so at what point do you refuse to move and shove back, or yell and scream and have a temper tantrum; " WHAT THE HELL?
I'm doing the right thing............"

Now you cowl at the thought that you just pissed off someone at the top and they just like messing with you.
so now i ask, if i continue to ignore all the delays in my life am i going to ever get what just passed me by.

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